Keep On Keeping On

This would be what a really big bird (of all things) can do to a car when the bird (hawk/vulture?) is too concerned with the roadkill on the road, and gets a low take off... (My car was just paid off in November, so it's bit disheartening to see this!) I had somewhat of an adventuresome drive-- with almost hitting a flattened cardboard box blowing out of the pickup in front of me, and hitting a big tumbleweed, even before I hit the bird!

I'm going to come out of my Christmas break by the skin of my teeth I believe, with the abuse I've been doing to my body. I have been eating absolutely horribly the last 2 weeks (well, the last several weeks/months have not been entirely good either), and it will be another 2 days before I'm able to get back to somewhat normalcy. I haven't been able to exercise the last 3 days due to traveling, and it's absolutely killing me that I'm not able to--- which seems kind of funny to me. I think maybe in the past, I wouldn't have really cared. My motivation has been lacking lately, and I've made the choice not to work out. Now when I'm not able to work out and I actually want to, seems a bit funny. With the stress of the holidays, I've been eating like a bottomless pit (and not entirely healthy), so that's part of the reason why I know not working out is so not good for me right now. I haven't been able to choose as much of what I eat with traveling, and not having the choices I normally have with food has been taxing on me.

I really would like to start taking pictures of what I eat, to be more accountable, but I suppose I'm a bit self-conscious about letting other people see that I'm taking a picture of what I'm eating. I ordered a Fit Bit , which I'm really excited about-- it will help with tracking calories, weight, and exercising. Hopefully, it doesn't become just another "fad" for me, and not get used.

I've never been really good at setting and attaining goals, partially b/c I've always struggled with having consistency in my life. I used to make New Years resolutions, but stopped a couple of years ago. They were always broken within a couple of weeks. I know that I need to be more specific than just "lose weight," in my goal, but at this point that's all that I can really think of. I want to be able to run another 5K, and also have balance/moderation in my eating. I guess I'm still working out the specifics.